The title is as simple as you could imagine.
What do you want? ; A very simple question, with a very difficult answer.
If you are a girl asking this to a guy and he takes a gentle pause, "umm" and says something like "love"...
GO FOR HIM!!
I quoted that example for no reason but to illustrate no one likes to lie, one is made to lie.
Most of your problems are because of your indecision. You don't segregate your 'I wants' and 'I don't wants'. Priorities are not that well set. Over time you try to be-fool yourself trying to meet peer expectations and society standards. But that never actually happens. You comply with others' evaluations, but your views stay rock solid. And you end up making wrong decisions that cost you dearly.
It isn't Pacman !